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Anniversaries & Graduations

Today is the 1-year anniversary of when I broke my ankle (I didn’t know I broke it until much later).  And while I’m not anywhere near where I want to be, running-wise, at least I’m running a little again, and for that I’m very thankful.  In fact, today my knees hurt more than my ankle, which made me feel almost normal again.  😉

 

It’s also springtime and graduation time, both of which make me think about how fleeting everything is (death and change everywhere).  So just remember that wherever you are in your running journey (or school or career or Netflix marathon session), it will change whether you like it or not, so enjoy the moment if it’s good, and take comfort in the knowledge that it will change if it sucks.  I also recommend eating an ice cream cone, because they are delicious.

 

It’s also Mother’s Day today – Happy Mother’s Day, Mom!  Did you remember to call your mom today?   What’s the best Mother’s Day present?  Does your mom run?  Share in the comments!

Broken Ankle Update & So Many Cancellations

I'm Breakable Kimmy Schmidt. :(

I’m Breakable Kimmy Schmidt. 🙁

Since my last ankle hell update wherein I learned from my MRI that I’ve had a broken fibula for the past 6 months, I spoke with my new orthopedic doctor and visited a new physical therapist at Columbia.  I’m not 100% thrilled with the advice of either one and I have more questions that I’ll try to get answered next week.  In a nutshell, I’m broken and not healing and life sucks.

 

The doctor said I didn’t have to wear a boot or use crutches, despite my leg still being broken after 6 months.  She said I only had to wear that little Darco shoe that didn’t protect my ankle at all.  That seemed wrong to me, and since I continued to have pain, I put myself back in the boot and on crutches to take the weight off and give the bone time to heal.  Going back on crutches has been maddening, yes, but honestly the last 6 months have been such a nightmare, what’s another 6 weeks of hell?  She did prescribe physical therapy that included ultrasound stimulation, and said I could bear weight as tolerated.

 

I got a second opinion from my new physical therapist and he agreed with me that I should stay in the boot and on crutches for now.  He said this weekend I could start using a single crutch to give the bone a little bit of weight to promote bone formation, as it’ll have been 2 weeks since I took the weight off by putting myself on my boot/crutch regimen.  He also pointed out my fracture on my X-rays – YES, that’s right, the doctor (from the Hospital of Special Surgery, no less!) should have known immediately from the X-rays that my ankle was broken.  It’s truly astonishing the incompetency I’ve encountered in this debacle.

 

However, he disagreed with the ultrasound stimulation prescription, claiming it’s contra-indicated for fractures.  This led me down a google-hole of research on ultrasound & electrical stimulation for nonunion or delayed union fractures (aka any fracture that hasn’t healed in over 6 months, like mine).  It appears that contrary to being a contra-indication, ultrasound stimulation (or, even more so, electrical stimulation) is a well-established therapy for nonunion fractures.  Unfortunately it’s not a magic cure-all, and it seems like many nonunion fractures do end up needing surgery.  However, since surgery comes with all sorts of other risks and pain, I’m planning on trying every possible non-surgical therapy I can and using surgery only as a last resort.  Also, since the prospect of ankle surgery truly freaks me out (and not in a fun Halloween way), I’m trying not to dwell on it as much as possible.  Surgery!

 

Overall, I’m still totally dissatisfied by the incompetent medical care I’ve been receiving, from the initial orthopedist to the doctors at Hospital for Special Surgery to my various physical therapists.  No one has caught on to anything, and it’s forcing me to be my own doctor, which is outrageous and frustrating and ridiculous and maddening.  Sadly, I am learning an important lesson – don’t trust doctors with your well-being, let alone your life.  I dread the day when I’m sick and even more mentally incapacitated than I am now, because I won’t be able to spend hours on google reading articles and trying to diagnose and fix myself, and my illness will probably be more severe, and I will be royally screwed.  Ah, what fun things to look forward to in the future!

 

In other running news, I won’t be doing the Poland Spring Marathon Kickoff tomorrow, of course.  But I picked up the shirt anyway, with faraway dreams of wearing it with an unbroken leg in the future.  I’m also not going to be able to do the NYRR Dash to the Finish, which makes 5 NYRR races and 5 marathons I will have missed due to this injury.  Oh, and for anyone keeping track, that means I’ll be 2 races short of qualifying for the NYC Marathon in 2017.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  Again, I’m less upset about that than the waste of time and money, and the fear/constant dread that I’ll never run again.

Front and back of the Poland Spring Marathon Kickoff shirt - it's a 50/50 cotton poly short sleeve unisex cut. Meh.

Front and back of the Poland Spring Marathon Kickoff shirt – it’s a 50/50 cotton poly short-sleeve unisex cut. Meh.

I also cancelled my NYC Marathon volunteer shift because even if I worked comms/dispatch instead of in the ambulance, I’d still have to be in a tent in Central Park, which would be a challenge to get to.  Plus I’d still be in the boot, so I’d be a minor liability during a mass casualty event – not a good thing.  I’m really disappointed about the marathon volunteering, because last year was truly such a high point for me (before I mistrusted everyone with a medical degree, sigh…), and it’ll be another full year before I’ll have that kind of opportunity again — an opportunity of which there are only a handful more of in my future.

 

I’ve also officially cancelled my backpacking trip to Patagonia this December.  It was a tough (and expensive) decision but ultimately it’s a huge relief.  Even if my bone was completely healed by then (which is actually unlikely), it still would have been too much for my atrophied legs to hike up to 8 hours every day with a fully loaded pack.  I’ve lost a literal inch of muscle from my calf compared to my normal leg – a full inch!  🙁  I can only imagine how many years of my life I’m losing by being so sedentary.  That plus the incompetency of the medical profession and it’s a wonder I’m still alive.

 

Happy Halloween!

 

How many races have you missed in your running career?  How much do you distrust doctors?  What are you going as for Halloween?  Share in the comments!

What to Binge Watch While Injured

The window into my soul.

The window into my soul. The fitness channels are there only for show.

So… what the heck do you do all day when you can’t run or walk or do anything fun with anyone ever? Watch TV!  And sometimes read.  Here are some of my more notable discoveries made over the last 6 months:

 

Crazy Ex-GirlfriendFrom the CW, available on Netflix – This is my spirt animal TV show.  It is amazing.  It follows a New York City lawyer who moves to California to be close to her ex-boyfriend from summer camp.  It’s cheesy, and funny, and has short random musical numbers that are hilarious.  Also, I deeply identify with the main character.  Does that mean I’m a crazy ex-girlfriend?  Maybe.  I don’t know.  Shut up!

 

Below Deck: MediterraneanBravo, available on Hulu and probably on-demand from your cable provider – This is one of those Bravo reality shows that might not be up everyone’s alley, but if you enjoy the occasional reality show you might also enjoy this one – there are beautiful people saying and doing ridiculous things, plus some fighting (but not nearly as much fighting as The Real Housewives of NY).  Plus, it’s all set on a yacht in the Mediterranean, so the scenery is great, and the people who charter this expensive boat are for the most part horrible, so that’s fun, too.

 

Man in the High CastleAmazon – I kinda forced myself to watch this one.  It’s based on a novel by Philip K. Dick (the same SciFi wizard who gave us The Minority Report and Blade Runner, among many others), but the show desperately needs more action and/or a more ruthless editor, since the entire season would have made about 2 decent episodes of TV.  Still, if you dream of a world in which the Nazis won WW2, then you’ll love this show.

 

Stranger ThingsNetflix – This was the big summer breakout show, described as Goonies meets Steven King set in the 80’s.  All of that sounds super promising, but for me it failed to deliver.  It suffered from huge character ability/motivation plot holes, shrill, irritating, one-note acting (I’m looking at you, Winona Ryder), and general sluggishness.  If I were you, I’d pass.

 

 

GirlsHBO – I really thought I was going to hate this show so I was surprised when I suddenly found myself binging all 5 seasons a few months ago.  It follows horrible, self-involved young women who live in Brooklyn doing stupid millennial things, but somehow it’s very watchable to this almost-40 single women doing nothing but sitting on her couch and eating.  The show includes a fair amount of normal-body nudity, which helped me feel better about myself.

 

Game of ThronesHBO – I read the entire Song of Fire and Ice series several years ago and enjoyed it (the key is to not worry about all the names and relationships but to just let the story wash over you — you’ll remember the important characters because he repeats them), but when I first tried to watch the TV show I quickly grew bored of what ironically felt like a flat version of the book (the Imp is a marvelous character, and Peter Dinklage is a terrific actor, but without his internal dialogue I felt like it was missing something).  But, after being so seriously sidelined with this injury, I gave it another go and ended up watching all 6 seasons in about two weeks.  I’m now caught up with the show, which is actually beyond the books at this point, so now I’m waiting for more TV and for more books, which is a little frustrating to this double-GoT-junkie.

 

CatastropheNetflix – I’m only halfway through season 1 of this 2-season show but so far it’s pretty funny, and quick, and easy to watch.  It’s a comedy involving an American and an Irishwoman living in London, so it’s fun to watch all the weird stuff the Brits do and the unending patience the obviously more advanced American has for all their funny ways (hahaha, just kidding… 😮 ?).

 

WestworldNew on HBO – I just started this show and since it’s new there are only 2 episodes available, so you can’t binge it yet, but I had to mention it because I’m already in love with and obsessed with this show.  It’s a SciFi show where people pay a bunch of money to visit an Old West theme park populated by hyper-realistic androids.  The “guests” do various horrific things to the androids, but every night the park is re-set and the androids go back to square one (like a video game).  But of course things go wrong, and that’s wonderful – for us, the viewers.  I hope this show stays as amazing as it started.  (Note – this show has more nudity and violence in its first episode than Game of Thrones had in its first season, but what did you expect from HBO?)

 

Some shows I watched before I got injured but continue to enjoy include The Last Man on Earth (so surprisingly good), Modern Family, The Walking Dead (although I’m enjoying that less and less, to be honest), and every naked reality show ever.

 

Books

I really enjoyed Eligible by Curtis Sittenfeld, who wrote Prep and various other novels that weren’t as good as Prep or Eligible.  I also finally read The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins, which I enjoyed but not quite as much as I enjoyed the Gone Girl/Sharp Objects/Dark Places series by Gillian Flynn.  (Oh god, maybe I really am a crazy ex-girlfriend…)  I also read A Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman, which was kinda cute and a little sad but obviously meant to be heartwarming.  As far as nonfiction goes, I recently read Peak: Secrets from the New Science of Expertise by Anders Ericsson and Robert Pool, but I think you could get almost as much out of it by simply reading a summary.

 

I just started Crazy Rich Asians by Kevin Kwan, because that is a book you read after you finish a depressing book about WWI (Birdsong by Sebastian Faulks), while sitting on the couch eating popcorn and drinking gingeraid kombucha.

 

What do you like to do for long periods of time when you can’t move?  Any books or TV shows I should avoid?  What are your feelings about kombucha?  Share in the comments!